I can't believe people are still reading this! The stats page tells me otherwise.

Anyway, this blog is pretty much finished. I quit my job in the adult industry after 4 years (18 months in this particular job). For 3 months or so now i've been freelance/unemployed (depending on how you look at it) and it's been the best decision i've made in a long time.

Interesting though it may have been (occasionally) to read about, working in the porn industry is, by and large, fucking boring and a total dead end unless you're at the top of the pile. Internet porn webmasters are a different story but being involved in the production of content itself is a thankless task with no real rewards.

Plus - my boss was a total moron. I had 2 bosses, one of which took care of the film production and the other handled the money and business side of things. Guess which one was the moron?

Yeah, you guessed it. Ker-ching! (That was a clue) My reasons for leaving were amongst the following....

I turned up early every day for a year and worked my ass off, improved the look of the films no end , never received much in the way of gratitude and, worst of all, didn't get a pay rise. Our christmas bonuses mysteriously 'disappeared' and not only was i told i wouldn't be getting a rise but that they really ought to be employing somebody cheaper!! Unbelievable!

What kind of idiot expects his staff to have any kind of morale if he tells them that they're worth less than they thought?!!? For the last 6 months i was literally just turning up. That's all. I did the minimum amount of work and left everyday at 6pm on the dot. It came as no suprise to me that nobody noticed any difference. I realised that no matter what i did at work i was wasting my time, my employers couldn't give two fucks about their staff (that office atmosphere was darker than a morgue by the time i left) and most of all i realised that the longer i stayed in porn the more damage it was doing to my showreel. You just can't put anything about the adult industry on your CV as you never know who's going to read it. Even in 2005 there is a large portion of the world that thinks that if you're involved in pornography then you must be some kind of drooling rapist that loves nothing more than using women and masturbating over pictures of children.

However, knowing all of this had it's advantage. I had no contract! I'd asked for one several times over the course of my employment but they never bothered to draw one up. So, knowing i could never mention the job on my CV i had nothing to lose by walking out and telling them what i thought of them! It was great, something i'm sure everyone dreams of doing, i know i have.

I gave them about 20 minutes notice and never came back the next day. Apart from having nothing to lose myself, they deserved it. Simple as that. They pay peanuts, they got monkeys. I wouldn't dream of leaving any other job in such an unprofessional manner but they really did deserve it. After experiencing 3 deaths in my family in one year i was treated as a nuisance when i had to atttend a funeral or family meeting.

Shit, i never intended this to be some boring rant about quitting my job, but hey - it all just came out. I'd like to thoroughly un-recommend working in the adult industry to anyone who wants to become further involved in film or television production. It might seem like a fun way in but you're unlikely to be taken seriously by other employers. Don't do it!

Now, i'm back filming and editing skateboarding again and have a small blog and site up at www.livefromantarctica.com where you can see a trailer for the forthcoming video from Heroin Skateboards.

Thanks to all the other bloggers at 20six.com and friends who've read this site in the past. The rights to the movie of my life are on sale for $20 million, with the book rights at $50,000.

Farewell.